Does he even know… 

Does he even know…

That she thinks about him every day…

That she has been waiting, waiting… waiting…

….for a fair chance


Does he even know…

That he has been her prayer request since the the first day she laid eyes upon him…..

..many years ago…

that she compares every man she meets to him…and thus…

….they never get a chance


Does he even know..

That she becomes anxious, speachless and paralyzed with fear when he does to talk her…

And spends days after beating herself up for  things  she has mumbled out of nervousness…


Does he even know…

The lengths she has gone to get his attention…

And to keep it


Does he even know…

That she plays cool and distant…

So she doesn’t look vulnerable and desperate…


Does he even know…

That she cried when she found out he was with another…

Even though she smiled and wished him well…

MIA: Old Fashioned Romance

Old Fashioned romance…….


What has happened to it?

In this day of “’instant gratification” it seems to have been lost

“Real” values and sweet simple gestures now seem to be considered to be out dated.

I would prefer to have a “real”  10-minute phone conversation over ‘all day long’ pointless BS texting or via other forms of electronic communication

I want flowers instead of JPEG or GIF images

I want sitting under the stars holding hands or cuddling on the couch instead of going to the newest trendiest restaurant.

I want a real soul connection

I want someone to ask me how my day was.


I want REAL

The feeling of butterflies when you see a special someone.

I want to see the twinkle in his eye when he sees s me.

I want to be the reason behind his smile

I want to inhale and get drunk off his cologne when he holds me.

I want to be treated like a lady..

having my door opened for me and feeling his hand on my lower back leading me….

help taking off and putting on my coat…

having my chair pulled out for me.

I want to be respected and valued.

I want to be addressed by my name…

Not sexy



But beautiful is ok 🙂

I want someone that doesn’t expect sex so soon because I prefer it to be meaningful.

I want those small sweet gestures that are so now overlooked. Its those small things that mean the most to me.

I’m tired of the swiping left and right…

Having inappropriate pictures sent to me

One-night stand requests


Expectations of sex after soon meeting


Requests for threesomes etc

I am tired of being one of many options.

I want someone that wants to take the time to get to know me—and me alone.

I want monogamy.

All these things that hold true to me are very rare to find these days.

I feel like the “uptight girl” in a world where quick casual sex and serial dating is the norm.

I’d rather be that odd ball out instead of selling myself to try and fit in.

I want the “old fashioned” stuff over anything else.

Until then….

I will be the “uptight dork” hiding behind my Canon and MAC until it comes along…










Wild child or Angel?

She has spent a lifetime..

caught between…

grace and wild

morals and fun


rules and rebellion

Always on the fence

pushing the limits of one

but yet..

maybe not always hard enough for the other

eternally stuck between 2 worlds

Wild child….

or Angel?

all depends on how she feels each day


She needs a man that..

can love her both ways